First off, thanks so much for reading it with such attention and care, that's gratifying and rather lovely of you. Thanks so much.
the internet is the real hero of this story. YES!!! Thank you!! I never developed that half as much as I'd wanted at the start, the story took on a life of its own at that point and there were an awful lot of sticky problems with the plot around that time that took an awful lot of sorting and the whole internet side of the tale got forgotten, which is a pity. I wanted to show how the internet could be used and how strong a tool it is in these situations - as evidenced by the recent Iranian uprisings (which happened long after these chapters were written).
Naomi knows Jim has a limp? Has she been doing so intelligence gathering, since he's been in the wheel chair since they met in Blair's hospital room. Oh man, is that still glitchy? That was A Big Thing when I wrote that chapter and I know I rewrote that so it made sense. Maybe I over edited or for some reason (the horror!) used an earlier version...? I don't think that can be right though. ::sigh:: I'll look over it again and make sure something's done before it's posted anywhere else - thanks for catching that.
Towards the end, a lot of it was about dealing with a terribly complex plot I'd tied myself into. Blair got released without trial because from the research I was doing (it was intense! lol, it had to be, I was in the dark about so much *G*), I thought it was a believable scenario but mostly, of course, because I couldn't face writing lengthy Grisham-style courtroom scenes. The thing was already over 100,000 words and all I really wanted to do was get Blair into the mountains, feeding his birds and bring Jim back into the story.
I know it's totally ott with the angst, it really (honestly!) wasn't my original intention. Before I started writing, I knew all about the academy, the student house, the hazing and etc. I knew about Owl, I knew about the year in solitary and I had vague inklings about the mountain retreat (though at the start I thought it would be Blair alone, Naomi came later, she just happened in the story and it made sense to have her there. And I like Naomi, for all her many faults, she cares deeply about Blair and he for her, that's what's always come across most strongly in canon to me, the strength of their relationship). The way those things would link together was a complete mystery and came - as I knew it would - from the writing. Things just happened, all of them terrible and angsty! lol (I can't seem to help myself, I think I have a problem!). I did wibble massively about posting it because it's SO ott but what the heck - if people don't like it they don't like it. ::shrug:: At the end of the day, it's just a story.
I am sorry that I didn't develop Jim's side of the story as much as I'd hoped. That is the one big thing that I'd change if I could. Simon too, I'd like to see his side, why he was so angry (massive disappointment really) and how he deals with Blair becoming the hero. Maybe there'll be a sequel, the thing is crying out for one, I know. Maybe someone else will write it? I honestly don't think I have the strength.
So very human and complicated Thank you. I wanted it to be real and it was in my head, the whole time, that human beings just don't bounce back like from trauma like this (Jim's post-Peru PTSD is something else I'd like to see dealt with realistically). I know they do on TV but I always do feel, watching TS, that Blair would have been in therapy for years getting over the stuff that happened to him just in season ONE, let alone all that comes later. I suppose Blue is the story of a breakdown, really. It is a sad tale with no sunshiny-bright happy end. The end was as happy as I dared make it; there's hope, they're back together, they understand each other and will go on learning about each other. I didn't want a magic-penis ending; 'with one bound he was free', I wanted it to have at least a smidgeon of reality. :o)
Thanks again for taking so much time and effort, that was great to read and made me think. Thanks so very much.
Double edit, sorry; first time around it just didn't make sense.
Well. Gosh.
the internet is the real hero of this story.
YES!!! Thank you!! I never developed that half as much as I'd wanted at the start, the story took on a life of its own at that point and there were an awful lot of sticky problems with the plot around that time that took an awful lot of sorting and the whole internet side of the tale got forgotten, which is a pity. I wanted to show how the internet could be used and how strong a tool it is in these situations - as evidenced by the recent Iranian uprisings (which happened long after these chapters were written).
Naomi knows Jim has a limp? Has she been doing so intelligence gathering, since he's been in the wheel chair since they met in Blair's hospital room.
Oh man, is that still glitchy? That was A Big Thing when I wrote that chapter and I know I rewrote that so it made sense. Maybe I over edited or for some reason (the horror!) used an earlier version...? I don't think that can be right though. ::sigh:: I'll look over it again and make sure something's done before it's posted anywhere else - thanks for catching that.
Towards the end, a lot of it was about dealing with a terribly complex plot I'd tied myself into. Blair got released without trial because from the research I was doing (it was intense! lol, it had to be, I was in the dark about so much *G*), I thought it was a believable scenario but mostly, of course, because I couldn't face writing lengthy Grisham-style courtroom scenes. The thing was already over 100,000 words and all I really wanted to do was get Blair into the mountains, feeding his birds and bring Jim back into the story.
I know it's totally ott with the angst, it really (honestly!) wasn't my original intention. Before I started writing, I knew all about the academy, the student house, the hazing and etc. I knew about Owl, I knew about the year in solitary and I had vague inklings about the mountain retreat (though at the start I thought it would be Blair alone, Naomi came later, she just happened in the story and it made sense to have her there. And I like Naomi, for all her many faults, she cares deeply about Blair and he for her, that's what's always come across most strongly in canon to me, the strength of their relationship). The way those things would link together was a complete mystery and came - as I knew it would - from the writing. Things just happened, all of them terrible and angsty! lol (I can't seem to help myself, I think I have a problem!). I did wibble massively about posting it because it's SO ott but what the heck - if people don't like it they don't like it. ::shrug:: At the end of the day, it's just a story.
I am sorry that I didn't develop Jim's side of the story as much as I'd hoped. That is the one big thing that I'd change if I could. Simon too, I'd like to see his side, why he was so angry (massive disappointment really) and how he deals with Blair becoming the hero. Maybe there'll be a sequel, the thing is crying out for one, I know. Maybe someone else will write it? I honestly don't think I have the strength.
So very human and complicated
Thank you. I wanted it to be real and it was in my head, the whole time, that human beings just don't bounce back like from trauma like this (Jim's post-Peru PTSD is something else I'd like to see dealt with realistically). I know they do on TV but I always do feel, watching TS, that Blair would have been in therapy for years getting over the stuff that happened to him just in season ONE, let alone all that comes later. I suppose Blue is the story of a breakdown, really. It is a sad tale with no sunshiny-bright happy end. The end was as happy as I dared make it; there's hope, they're back together, they understand each other and will go on learning about each other. I didn't want a magic-penis ending; 'with one bound he was free', I wanted it to have at least a smidgeon of reality. :o)
Thanks again for taking so much time and effort, that was great to read and made me think. Thanks so very much.
Double edit, sorry; first time around it just didn't make sense.