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posted by [personal profile] panik at 01:05pm on 19/10/2007 under ,
Who sang that? It'll drive me nuts till I find out... **

My insomnia goes from bad to worse. I'm living on about 3 hours sleep a night at the moment; 7 to 9 is my norm. I feel like I'm having an out of body experience. I was practically comatose by the time Newsnight came on last night so I had high hopes of getting to sleep and I did actually drift off sometime after 2am - which isn't bad going for me, lately - then woke at 10 past bloody 4; I should've got up and done some work as I have been doing lately, but I was so tired,  I just wanted to get back to sleep. Finally dozed off at about 6.30 and woke again 2 hours later.

Sheesh. As they say.

I've been busy working on the novel, it's coming on. It got better when I finally worked out the nature of the narrator character; the one I think of as Blair/Gabe - he's somewhere in between with his own strange idiosyncrasies.

He was a bit of a head case with a past - he still is but now, he's more normal *G* - He has to be, really, for the bitter ex-cop, the Jim character, if you will - (though he's nothing like Jim at all, more Sam Tyler than Jim, really but not really Sam, either) ) -  to like him and relate to him. So now Angel (that's his name - (o: it's all to do with his odd past) is just eccentric, rather than a nutter; never leaving his a cosy, closed off world in a big Victorian house - he's all in denial about what's happening outside (has painted over the windows that face the street in his basement flat) - the world may be falling apart out there (metaphysically, at least) but inside the house, all is calm and warm and lovely. There are cats and an Aga. (o: He's damaged, but not terminally.

I have new characters too - Angel's house has 4 floors so I needed more tenants for him, so I now have a girl student and a divorced woman in late middle age; sassy and confident and eccentric herself, in a way - into crystals and tarot and astrology, but not Naomi; more Judi Dench than Leigh taylor Young. I'm not sure how they'll fit into the story yet, but I have a feeling they'll turn out to be important.

I'm working on the 2 main characters today; Angel and Jim/Sam  - I still haven't settled on a name for Jim/Sam. In my original notes he was Martin - after Marty Hopkirk - but I'm not sure that's right for him now. I'm going to have a coffee now then work on him - why is he an ex-cop and why is he so bitter?

I'm still confused about the past-lives aspect of the story, too, but that will come, I expect as I work it through. It's coming on, but slower than I'd hoped - I have decided to sign up for the NaNo thing, just for the craic and the chat, and the discipline of a daily word count, but that means starting in November so I have to crack on with the groundwork. I've been reading some fascinating stuff by means of research... Get this...

‘IF YOU CAN UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT THAT OUR SOULS ARE FRAGMENTED AND EXISTING ON SEVERAL PLANES, THEN YOU ARE READY TO CONSIDER THIS: OUR SOULS ARE INDEED IMMENSE ENOUGH TO EXIST IN MANY REALITIES AT ONCE. A small seed of our soul is all that is necessary to manifest in each reality. This allows our soul to manifest many times in each reality, plane, etc. In fact, we run into ourselves everyday. The person sitting next to you might, in fact, be a manifestation of your soul seed. Once you grasp this concept, consider that we are all, indeed, one.


Freak out!!! *G*


I have a Hank Moody icon - it's not quite right; I need to go back to the original picture and re-cut so Hank has more neck so I can fit the text in better; right now it's too close to his chin, and you can't see the ciggie dangling oh so attractively from his lip. But I kinda like it. It doesn't fit here because I am writing but some days, this icon totally fits how I feel. *G*

ETA: I fixed the icon. (o: And I've almost completed two more chapters of the Rainbows thingy. ::feels fannishly virtuous::

**It was The Scaffold.
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posted by [identity profile] fluterbev.livejournal.com at 12:51pm on 19/10/2007
Freak out, indeed!

Your characters sound super-intriguing :-)

::pets you for the tiredness:: I am super-tired too. I've been sleeping okay - Eoin seems to have finally started sleeping the night through, after 8 years of disturbed sleep - woo hoo! Yet for some reason I am utterly exhausted today. Could be because I still have years of sleep to catch up on!

Heading off to get the kids soon, and preparing to relinquish the PC for the weekend... ::cries::. Oh man, I am really missing my laptop :-(
 
posted by [identity profile] gillyp.livejournal.com at 01:06pm on 19/10/2007
Oh baby... I so feel for you without your laptop! For ages mine desperately needed a service but I couldn't bear to be parted while it spent a week of physio in Slough. Any chance of a repair job anytime soon?

And the sleeplessness... ::huggles you tight, pets you soothingly; Jim unto your Blair:: It's been B.A.D. for me lately - I used to get this all the time but not for years.

"Your characters sound super-intriguing :-)"
I'm getting a better feel for the characters now - I had the bare bones of the plot all along but the plot's not that essential; it's a character driven story so I'm having to do lots of work and make sure I know them all really well before I start. I'm especially pleased with Angel's lodgers; they round the story out nicely and I can't help feeling they'll prove to be quite important eventually.

It's quite exciting writing something new - I've been so bogged down for so long with the 2 Cuban books; writing and re-writing and editing and re-writing again - getting into something fresh, that *isn't* fanfic and isn't about bloody Cuba - I feel quite dizzy with it all. *G*

How's your book going, btw? Weren't you giving up the fic to concentrate on your novel?
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posted by [identity profile] fluterbev.livejournal.com at 01:13pm on 19/10/2007
No chance of repair in the near future, I'm afraid. I'm kind of resigned to it now - I'm just having a bad day today because I started thinking about how it's the start of half term, so until the boys go to their dad's next Wednesday, I've got to share the PC (which means they get the bulk of time on it to help keep them occupied and un-cranky). Meh, 'tis no matter. I am used to it now. But occasionally it bugs me, like today!

My book never got rekindled, sad to say. I had all kinds of stuff happen (as you know), and it went out of my head, since it belonged to happier times. For now, I plan to concentrate on fanfic, and keep my head completely wrapped up in Jim and Blair - it's my happy place! :-)
 
posted by [identity profile] gillyp.livejournal.com at 01:18pm on 19/10/2007
For now, I plan to concentrate on fanfic, and keep my head completely wrapped up in Jim and Blair - it's my happy place! :-)
I hear that!

I'm just doodling with the next bit of Rainbows; I've put the novel away for today. I've eaten my vegetables (they were really nice veggies; asparagus, salsify and purple sprouting broccoli but even so...) now it's time for the ice cream. (o:
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posted by [identity profile] snailbones.livejournal.com at 02:08pm on 19/10/2007
I love hearing about the novel - how you're finding the characters - or are they finding you? *g*

And I so feel for you on the sleep deprivation... terrible, horrible feeling when you're so tired you get all spacey and still you can't sleep. Hope you get some proper rest soon babe. ::pets you gently::
 
posted by [identity profile] gillyp.livejournal.com at 02:44pm on 19/10/2007
::Relishes the petting:: Is that what they meant by those 'no petting' signs they had at the swimming pool back in the olden days, I wonder?

"or are they finding you? *g*"
No, I'm definitely finding them - with great difficulty; I'm poking them out of dark corners with pointed sticks then trapping them in a great big net... It's hard, sweaty work, but very satisfying. (o:
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posted by [identity profile] slipperieslope.livejournal.com at 04:05pm on 19/10/2007
I am so sorry you are not sleeping. The whole idea of insomnia frightens me because I need that eight hours respite to face another day of stress. I just cannot think about not getting it.

((hugs))

Your novel's characters read as wonderfully intriguing and I hope that Jim/Sam cracks and leaks a bit of his backstory to you soon.
 
posted by [identity profile] gillyp.livejournal.com at 07:40pm on 19/10/2007
I don't understand why I can't sleep. I'm sooooo tired, but when I lay down, nothing happens. It's bloody annoying. I don't feel too bad at the moment but it's gotta catch up eventually.

"Your novel's characters read as wonderfully intriguing and I hope that Jim/Sam cracks and leaks a bit of his backstory to you soon."
Lol! Thanks! I have a vague idea where he's coming from but no more. I started out with a basic idea and four characters that's slowly unfolding and rounding out and becoming so much more than I thought it would and it's all... rather cool. I'm enjoying writing it; it's like writing fic, which is a nice feeling. (o:

I should make a new novel icon.
 
and your nutter sounds like he's mildly happy...and how about Gilbert for your character? (lol, always happy to poke my nose in).
 
posted by [identity profile] gillyp.livejournal.com at 07:44pm on 19/10/2007
Hmmm. Your subject line intrigues me. I'm sure I should get it but I don't. (o:

The nutter *G* aka Angel - is he happy? You know, I really don't know; I don;t think so, not really, he's got some heavy stuff in his past and an awful lot of weirdness going on around him.

Gilbert. Hmmm. Somehow I don;t think he's a Gilbert, though the name is nicely quirky in keeping with the new feel I'm going for.

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