panik | I've removed rather a lot of people from my flist

And I don't want to be! ;>

No, it's OK if you're still here then you're not. If you see what I mean.

I've cut practically everyone I friended but hasn't friended back because I have to cut somewhere and that seems the logical place.

Whew, I'm still here. I'm so glad. ::huggles tightly::

duh! *g*

I made the cut! I MADE THE CUT! *doing a Texas happy dance* Thank you:)

I've only cut people who haven't friended me - rather a lot of them ::blush:: - my flist was of unmanageable proportions and I just want people who want to be here. You're well safe, hon. (o:

::sigh:: Your fandom phases and mine seem scarily in synch. I'm utterly fed up with it all at the moment - all the moaning minnies and egotistical nutcases have pissed me off beyond hope of redemption. My flist, at least, is a haven from all of that, but I doubt I'll venture much outside these walls again in the future. I don't even feel like writing right now, and my Jim and Blair love, which I thought would be everlasting... ::sigh::. I've not lost it, but it's not the huge, all-consuming passon it was.

I'm hesitating to close myself off completely right now, though. I'll wait until the big nasty is behind me before I make any actual decisions about where I stand with regard to fandom, because my apathy/antipathy could be a symptom of my wider non-fandom issues, and I don't want to close doors I may want to reopen at some point when it's all over. I'll just see how it goes a few weeks from now.

Having a bad day today, and taking a sickie from work, hence the fact I am a moaning minnie too :-(. However, I have treacle pudding and custard on the horizon, and (once the kiddies are in bed) my new boxed set of Torchwood, which I am growing to love (though I know you're not that into it, Cap'n Jack is my current cure for all ills ;-))

In other news, ::hugs:: Hi love! ♥

That's scary! Something cosmic you think? because that's EXACTLY what's happening to me in almost frightening detail.

Like you, my Jim/Blair love (which I too thought could never die) has been fading. I've been working on my fic because I do believe you have to finish what you started and I'm still into the story I'm trying to tell. But... It's not the joy it was. Unbelievably I'm still doing 2 stories from last year's Moonridge so I'm obviously not going to be offering anything his year; a first since I came into this fandom and something that's making me terribly sad.

I was getting back into Who-dom by way of compensation but - and gosh, I expect I count as one of your moaning minnies - I know I've been awfully negative about the Who finale but - man. I was LOVING it SO much until the last 15, 20 mins - which I think has killed my Who-love forever. Drawing a veil; I've vowed to let it go but it has upset me to a ridiculous degree and I've quit a ton of Who-coms because of it. Mad, I know. Totally batshit but I can't seem to help it. (o:

Like you, I did think about shutting down altogether. I came perilously close to taking my website down last week - but also like you, I don't want to slam doors that I may well want to re-open sometime.

I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. RL is pretty grim, tbh and I'm sure all this doom and gloominess is a reaction to that, as it almost certainly is for you, too. Maybe if/when my mood picks up my fannishness will too. I'm feeling a distinct lack of squee right now.

Funnily enough, Alison and I were discussion seeking a new fandom only last night. Not sure what though - not Torchwood, no. I know it's a popular one but just not for me I'm afraid.

I'm trying to pour my energies into original fic; working (or trying to - that's not going terribly well either. moan moan whinge and moan *g*) on my new novel and a slightly surreal, SciFi-angst-slash sitcom scenario that I'm going to try at the BBC Comedy unit with an eye on the Radio 4, 11pm adult-comedy slot. Pray for me. (o: I figure, if other people's characters are going to keep letting me down and harshing my squee, then I should work on my own crrrreations. Dance for me my puppets, come, let me hurt you in unusual ways... ::cue ebil laugh::

And in other news from me - sending hugs and brilliant, sparkling, fairy-dust vibes in hope of better things to come for both of us.

I shall be here for the foreseeable anyway, just not as large a presence as previously. I hope you're OK. Drop me a line, give me a call, whatever-whenever you need to honey. ♥

Eh, you don't moan in the way that annoys me, love. I know DW disappointed you, and that's fine - different prespectives on canon etc I can totally handle (and myself I still love it with a passion, and I was always more into the Rose/Doctor thing than you, so all is well ::hugs::). It's all just discussion, as far as I am concerned, and that's the fun part of fandom. I'm sorry it's been a deal breaker for you, because that's just sad :-(

No, it's the moaning, "LJ is the work of the devil, new writers suck, I am such an amazing speshul snowflake from the Land of Zines and a Real Fan not like those weirdoes over there," listers that I've been listening to for the last five fecking years, over and over saying the same bloody thing, that I've had my fill of. I'm also sick of the serial wankers and the backstabbers who just perpetuate their ridiculous, childish grudges ad infinitum. I am still quite happy to sit back and laugh at them, but I prefer to do it from a place of non-involvement! I honestly think my days of being active in the fandom are more or less over. Plus, god, I don't have the time anymore! The job, kids and music are totally eating my brain and I actually like it that way :-). But as I said, I don't want to flounce off or close doors, because there is still fun to be had, and I hope one day to find it again. It's still a great thing to be able to communicate with other people who share my kink for H/C, because RL definitely doesn't deliver that!

As regards a new fandom, I'm very into Torchwood but I'm also planning to give SGA a go. I bought seasons one and two, and I hope to start watching them this weekend. There are some great writers in that fandom, though I've only tapped a little bit of it in my reading. It's worth a try - Rodney is definitely an enigma of the kind I tend to like, and I can get behind the McShep from the little I've seen :-).

I'd love to get together with you soon. If you get any spare time, let me know, okay? Even just a few hours for a chat would be lovely :-)

Well I'm glad my whining hasn't offended you, I was rather afraid, for a while, that it had and I wouldn't want that for the world.

I didn't realise the listers were still getting your lovely, fluffy goat. I came off all but storyfinders and sentinelUK some time ago so I am immune. tbh, a large % of the people I've ousted are old fandom names; I've been friended to them for ages but noneof them have friended me back (despite having friended practically everyone else in my inner circle) and I just reached a point of... taking it personally. Anyway, i just don't need that stuff anymore. I shall write my own show and become my own fandom.

This is the plan. *g* (hey, it makes me happy in delicious little ways). SGA I think I tried for a few eppys and couldn't get into but I can try again if you rec it? My favourite fandom by far right now is Top Gear, mainly because it's so wank free and uncomplicated. I'm watching the American special on three right now, aamof.

I would LOVE to see you sometime. I'm currently trying to wangle a little more time off from the regular grind. I think Ali is trying to organise something around the birthdays too. As soon as I know what's going on, we shall talk babe. I'm sure we both could do with the squee-time. (o:

Oh, meant to say, if all you wanna do is chat, phone's complicated (read noisy and liable to be regularly interrupted) here in Yorkshire - but there's always the chat room on m'site - usually empty and echoing these days.

I was very sorry to read that you are depressed at the moment. With everything that has happened in your personal life recently, it is hardly surprising and I truly wish there was something tangible I could do to help make you feel better.

It is sad, but understandable, that, at this moment in time, even your love ofJ/B, or fandom in general, is unable to help you find enjoyment in something that gives/gave you pleasure. As a very selfish individual I hope that once you are feeling less depressed you will rediscover your "J/B squee" but I know too that people's interests change and if having something new and different in your life to squee about helps you now then that is all to the good.

I hope too that you don't decide to shut your site down. Your stories give a great deal of pleasure to many and it would be a shame to see it disappear. However again, it is not my decision and I respect your right to choose and do as you will with your site..big of me I know. :)

I wish you all the very best and hope that we have the pleasure of your company in TS and on LJ for many years to come but please know that if you should decide to move on that you have left a wonderful legacy behind you and you would be missed.

Whatever fandom you find to enjoy next will be lucky to have you.

Good luck too with your writing group. I wish all involved every success.

Take care and look after yourself Gilly, that's the important thing.

No! No splicing - I would have to come back and haunt you, and I'm waaaay too lazy for that... *g*

I shall kiss you instead.

::smooches you sloppily::

Mmm. Kisses and smooches and Cerne Abbot man. Does it get any better?

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