One, just one, of the many things I have to do today is re-write the first two chapters of my book and send it out to new agents.
The agency I approached first don't want it; one of their criticisms is that it's set in the recent past, so I'm taking out anything that points to it being a few years ago (nothing in Cuba has really changed since I made this trip so it's not really a biggie), leaving the time-frame ambiguous and trying again with three new agencies.
In total, I had to ditch three paragraphs. A simple enough task.
But now, everytime I read it through, to make sure it all still flows together, I come across something else that is just B.A.D. I've written and re-written and re-re-written and now I'm utterly convinced that the whole thing is a big, steaming pile of stinking poo. Or is it? I don;t know. I have no perspective on it at all anymore.
Man...
It's now 13.05. This is all I've done today and I'm no closer to completion than I was at 8.00 this morning.
Shit.
I'm having a bad, bad day.
The agency I approached first don't want it; one of their criticisms is that it's set in the recent past, so I'm taking out anything that points to it being a few years ago (nothing in Cuba has really changed since I made this trip so it's not really a biggie), leaving the time-frame ambiguous and trying again with three new agencies.
In total, I had to ditch three paragraphs. A simple enough task.
But now, everytime I read it through, to make sure it all still flows together, I come across something else that is just B.A.D. I've written and re-written and re-re-written and now I'm utterly convinced that the whole thing is a big, steaming pile of stinking poo. Or is it? I don;t know. I have no perspective on it at all anymore.
Man...
It's now 13.05. This is all I've done today and I'm no closer to completion than I was at 8.00 this morning.
Shit.
I'm having a bad, bad day.
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It's probably you, not the story, if that helps. Leave it, walk away, go back to it in a day or two maybe?
::hugs you::
Thanks, hon.
I'm putting it aside. I'll look at it again tomorrow. I've decided to eat instead (why didn't I put any chocolate on the Tesco order?) - and write fic. Fic is never as hard to write, have you noticed?
Thanks for your hugs and words of writerly wisdom. maybe the wretched thing will look less dung-like in the morning. ::nods in attempt to convince self::
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Perhaps a nice fic read would help you feel better *innocence*
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You think I didn't try that already? (o:
It's only 2.00 (it feels so much later - ot is it just that I feel so much older?) - I shall start writing some fic, go for a walk. I'm leaving the chapters till tomorrow. Another day can't hurt.
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I'm hopeing yo still like it.
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Hope the day gets better for you soon ::hugs gently::
You are so kind
::Is filled with the Love of the Flist::
I'm laying it aside for now; I'm just not getting anywhere and in continuously meddling I'm runing the risk of doing serious damage. Maybe tomorrow, the stupid thing will look less like manure and more like something I can bear to show to a real person of the literary profession.
Thanks for your hugs, hon, you have no idea how glad I am to have them. (o:
And thank God for Tescos, too, for yea, verily, they hath delivered unto me, crusty baguettes, gorgonzola, lemon olives and Chardonnay (the wine, not the character from Footballer's Wives). I'm starting the weekend early. (o:
::hugs you mightily::
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::hugs you some more::
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(It's OK, we don;t have to keep this up for long. ::G::)
Oh oh... here cvomes the rain! O:!
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Oh heck, it's ******* down!!!!
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I have an *extremely* hard time believing your book is a big, steaming pile of stinking poo. Or a little pile. Or any poo at all.
Just a natural part of the process, yes? Natural for a person to go through spells where you just can't *tell* and where you don't much care for what you've written -- and that's just temporary reaction, not reality; needing a breathing space.
So breathe, and believe. (And I sound like an advertising agency, sheesh.) You write wonderfully -- you need and *deserve* to believe in yourself and your writing.
And man, get all that poo out of your head! It's not true poo. I totally betcha.
Aw baby...
::starts to cry::
"I have an *extremely* hard time believing your book is a big, steaming pile of stinking poo. Or a little pile. Or any poo at all."
::is blubbing helplessly::
"You write wonderfully -- you need and *deserve* to believe in yourself and your writing."
::Is starting to embarrass everyone with noisy, no-holds barred weeping::
Oh.....
I SO want to say 'screw it', but I can't. It's too important. I've put it away for today, though; I know I need a break from it. And I have fic to work on - and so do you, what are you doing, wasting time over here?
Thank you for your sage words, honey. ::hugs you::
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Seriously, I think you just need to take a time-out from your book... but I guess you know that.
::hugs:: Hang in there.
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I'm warming up with tea and fic then I'm going to tackle it again. Gotta get this show on the road... O:
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I'm sure it's good. All your writing I'VE read has been. =>}
Good luck!
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So may I suggest you to go and try to focus on a landscape , a plant, an animal you like and to give it all your attention and gratefulness for some time. Then come back to your book and do the first thing that comes to your mind. You may be surprised. Ask Blair, this can be effective.
And don't forget to rest, the nature does it too.
Take care gifted lady.
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Thanks so much. I did go for a long walk in the woods and got soaked to the skin. It seemed to do me good. (o:
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::hugs::
And no chocolate on the Tesco order? What were you thinking?!
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Thanks for the hugs hone and yeah - no chocolate. I'm big as a house right now! O:
Maybe it was more than the three paragraphs
A lot of writers tell me they only whip their stuff into shape after the first rejection.
But no matter what, the process SUX!
::Drinking a cuppa tea in your honor and sympathizing::
Roslyn
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It wasn't, really,I was just having a bad day, I think. I'm going to finish tidying it up this afternoon and get it sent out to some new agents.
Thanks for the tea and sympathy!